-done truckin', for now...
it's so good to be back. i was telling DJ today how The Dead line,
"lately it occurs to me, what a long strange trip it's been"
has been popping up in my head here and there lately in-between long hours of the Primus song "Too Many Puppies".
"the who?"
"no, not The Who, The Greatful Dead!"
it's strange to think that in 2 months time it will have been a year since dad died. it's been a rough year with a long, hard, winter spent away from the home i didn't even know i had here in Philly. or at least i didn't know it then quite the way i know it now, which is true of all things in life that we come to, go away from, and come back to again.
-"And it takes a girl, and a night
And a book of this kind
A long long time to find it's way back"...
this summer i decided i'd be living in Portland, Oregon by now. i spent a good deal of October there and at the end of it i remember sitting up in my friend Rachael's "guest drawer bed" (yes, it's a bed in a giant drawer), unable to sleep (kinda like tonight), and just longing for "home". i prayed about that longing then and felt at peace and a few weeks later, back in Council, Idaho, walking home from church, i thought back on a phone conversation i'd had with my good friend Jess earlier that morning. we'd talked about how her boyfriend Mike (also my good friend) had crashed his bike and busted his jaw real bad. she told me about how our good friend Marco had walked to the hospital with a juicer, fruit, cards, and checkers all "tied to his back" and, thinking back on that image of brotherly love, walking down Missman Road, i decided i should move back to Philly. it took me a little while to realize i'd decided it then but i did realize it in the end.
-replenishing my HP
it's good to be back. this is a good place to heal. this is where my people are. this is where i want to be. there are good things on the horizon. real good things. it's good to be back.
fin.
i wrote this while listening to these songs...
1.I Am the Mountain - Damien Jurado
2.Brother of the Prodigal Son - Everything, Now!
3.Waterloo Sunset - The Kinks
4.Sometimes - My Bloody Valentine
5.Caring is Creepy - The Shinns
6.Fell in Love at 22 - Starflyer 59
7.You Can't Hurry Love - The Concretes
8.Lovely Rita - The Beatles
9.Astral Plane 1 - Cowboy Angels
10.Looking back I should have been Home more - Richard Swift
11.Walt Whitman's Neice - Billy Bragg and Wilco
with quotes by...
The Greatful Dead
Freaks and Geeks
Woody Guthrie
and if you're in the mood for a good war protest song...